But she denied reports she was suicidal, saying she would never harm herself because of her two sons.

Jade, who has admitted Shilpa was the victim of racist bullying, said she was sorry for the Bollywood star’s parents having to watch her suffer.

The 25-year-old told GMTV that while she was "effing and blinding", Shilpa had been nothing but dignified.

A contrite Jade said: "My actions and my words were wrong. They are not justified, I won’t justify them.

"I didn’t realise how nasty and ugly that was until I watched it.

"I am upset that I let myself get like that. I never knew I argued like that, I didn’t know I looked as ugly and aggressive as that.

"I argue like that with everybody. It wasn’t just because of the colour of her skin that I was that aggressive," she said.

"I don’t know any other way of arguing."

She continued: "I do not want my children to go through school getting rejected."

The Channel 4 board is due to meet later today to discuss the future of CBB.

Jade admits Shilpa suffered racism - Jan 21 2007
Jade Goody has admitted that fellow Celebrity Big Brother contestant Shilpa Shetty had been subjected to "bullying and racism" in the programme.

She told the News of the World her behaviour towards the Bollywood star had been the biggest mistake of her life and she said she is concerned about her family receiving abuse from the public as a result of her behaviour.

Jade, 25, said she needed psychological help and that she would only have herself to blame if it spelt the end of her career.

It came after she was evicted from the Big Brother house in a public vote after Shilpa was subjected to racial bullying.

Now a contrite Jade has given her £50,000 appearance fee to charity, together with £50,000 from the News of the World. The paper said she was being paid nothing for the interview.

Jade said of Shilpa: "She was a victim of bullying and racism, yes. I can understand why she would have said that."

She added she was now "shocked and disgusted" by her own behaviour and she had not realised before how she could be so "intimidating or bullying".

Asked about her labelling the Bollywood actress "Shilpa Poppadom", she said she did not think "poppadom" was a racist word.

She said that "things that I may not think are racist can actually be racist" but it was her own fault for being ignorant about other people’s cultures.

"I hate myself right now," she added.

Jade evicted from Big Brother house - Jan 19 2007
Jade Goody has become the third person to be evicted from the Celebrity Big Brother house.

Jade, 25, was hot favourite to be booted off the show after being accused of racism following angry clashes with Bollywood actress Shilpa Shetty.

Instead of emerging from the house to face the usual crowds, the former dental nurse was being taken straight to a studio for an interview with presenter Davina McCall.

A worried looking Jade was close to tears after hearing the result of the public vote.

Jade, who now has some inkling of the race row that is raging outside the Big Brother house, was reassured that Davina would look after her when she left.

Earlier, TV bosses banned crowds from confronting Jade, saying the evictee would be unaware of the "heated public debate" that has been raging outside the house.